by Anonymous I seem to have woken up in my mid thirties having missed the point where I became this subservient house wife type. I want to leave my decade + relationship but we are so intertwined in multiple aspects of our lives that I can't see a way out . I also can't imagine this person not being in my life but I feel completely done with living with them. Not sure if I am hitting some mid life shit where I just need a drastic change or if I'm am curious about meeting new people and sexual exploration. It doesn't help that my partner rarely indicates sex or shows me that they find me attractive unless I ask. I fantasize about other people wanting to pursue me sexually and this has been fun but on more than one occasion it has been about people I know and gets way too tempting. I have definitely found myself in a dissociative state dreaming of getting fucked in some coat closet at a friend's Christmas party...that's normal, right? I can't tell if I'm just bored and feeling neglected or if this is what it feels like when a relationship is coming to an end. After a decade does most of the excitement live in my mind? And what the fuck would I do if some romance novel erotic closet meetup encounter actually had the chance of happening. Would I just go for it!? ...anyway...I wish everyone was more sexually open and fluid and monogamy didn't threaten to ruin relationships when our natural urges to fuck and feel pleasure takes hold. I'm not meant to feel like property. ...read more read less