BAKERSFIELD, Calif. (KGET) -- It's been over a decade of grief for Yvette Pena's family. Now, they need the community's help to find some closure. "I'm not a sister anymore…I'm not," said Danielle Gonzales, sister of Yvette Pena. Life has not been the same for Gonzales, after losing her older and only sister Yvette Pena, who she says practically raised her to the senseless killer, Jaime Osuna, in 2011. "Yes, next month will be 13 years but it doesn't feel like 13 years," said Gonzales. "The pain is still there." The anniversary of her death brings back all the feelings. "The holidays are really hard, it kind of starts with Halloween," said Gonzales. "She loved dressing up, she loved Halloween, she loved passing out candies to the kids and seeing everybody's costumes. Then Thanksgiving...we loved to cook, we loved to and our kitchen was always smelling good." Monster swordfish breaks California record The family hopes this season brings the closure they couldn't get 13 years ago. The murder left Pena's body unsuitable for viewing. "We weren't given an option to bury her. We were told we had no choice but to cremate her," said Gonzales. "It felt like there wasn't a final closure, there wasn't a body to see one last time, a viewing, it was a notification of her death and then here's a box of ashes. It just felt so unreal. We want to bury them and have a place to visit." A place where family can finally visit Pena, remembered by her selflessness. "What I loved about her the most was her giving, her absolute giving. There's was times in her life when she had nothing to give but she would still give," said Gonzales. "Whether it was the last dollar to her name, clothes off of her back, literally." Pena is set to be buried in the family plot. If you want to help make that possible you can find the family's GoFundMe on our website.